I am about to get deep on ya guys, so if you are anything like me and try to avoid real emotion at all costs this may not be the post for you. I have mentioned here and there a tidbit about how my husband and I are not able to have children. We have not really openly shared this with most people; frankly it is a bit embarrassing. I just felt that I have been going through this for 3 years now and I know that if I can just help one person feel that they are not alone in this that it is worth talking about. We have had 5 miscarriages. Yes, 5. Each more heartbreaking then the last. I will not lie; I sob like a small child. I allow myself time to move on and heal, but that is exactly what I do: move on. It is awful and unfair, but we cannot let it control our lives. So go out with the girls, take a trip with your spouse, or go for a day at the spa. You need to get away; trust me, it helps to remove yourself for a little while, even if it's just for a night. I want a child more than anything, but I have come to the realization that children may never happen for us. For others there are so many ways to achieve this goal; adoption is wonderful and brings so much joy and happiness. Surrogacy does the same. I feel the best thing for us is to enjoy our life together. That does not mean we will stop trying; it just means that we will not let it control our lives and we'll still find the joys in life. My heart is broken for anyone who ever has gone though or will go through this. I would not wish this on my worst enemy. But we all have the strength to do this. I get mine from my Heavenly Father. Whatever your strength may be, find it and hold on to it and walk ahead. There are so many joys in life. I love and wish nothing but the best for all of you.
-Megan
No comments:
Post a Comment